i feel sad... no.. thats too candid a way to tell ppl that im not feeling good... but thats my way of telling ppl how i feel.. i mean.. i do stupid things like ask ppl if i've got the untrustworthy face and obviously i'll get a YES.. even when i asked that question.. i half expected a YES from jolene(i suppose its spelled like that. btw that's kentang's fren)

i should stop deviating... the point... life as i know seems to be falling apart.. the days of joy in the first three months have flew past in the blink of an eye... whoosh... parting is hard.. especially when u look back and relive the days u had spent together... the bonds u've forged.. u feel as though its going to withstand any tests.. incineration in the furnace, freezing in liquid nitrogen. u feel as though u could walk through the pits of despair and still come out smiling. Parting is hard, so u console urself.. we're still in the same sch... but do u tink it'll work out? i dunno.. will we still rmb each other like in 4 or 5 months time? will we talk like we used to? maybe... maybe not... we'll c... time will confirm my fears...

have u all ever thought of doing sth and when you're about to.. u seem to age and seem to be restrained by a lot of things? by parents? by circumstances? by yourself? maybe because you are starting to have second thoughts? or maybe someone is affecting ur decision? this seems extremely complicated.. u muz be tinking... Holy cow, Xavier is going bonkers! he is DISTURBED! to tell u the truth... i tink i am... how i wish i could talk to someone... (no i dun wish for ppl hu read this to come and try and tok to me and dig stuff outta me)

i wrote this entry juz so that i can relieve myself of all this bottled emotionsand thoughts that i've had for the past dunno how long la.. hopefully not too long ago.. its a new class i have now.. i'll have them as mates to share the joy and woes.. gotta open up to them even if i dun wish to.. sigh... i've made the mistake of not being bothered with my OG.. when i wanted to open up.. it seems as if time is so short and alls lost.. they seem to hate me (i tink they love and adore me.. i wrapped sweets for them!) so right here right now.. I WANT TO APOLOGOSE TO OTALA, ORISHA.. PPLE I AM SO SORRY! WILL YA FORGIVE ME AND BE NICE TO ME?? I PROMISE I'LL EAT WITH U ALL IF U WANT ME TOO! YEA!

lastly.. i want to send my prayers for a soulmate that i can have.. i mean.. its good to have a confidant right? No man is an island.. no matter howstrong u are.. there are times when u feel extremely vulnerable and need to seek protection and love from somebody.. hopefully you're juz close to me...

i feel sad bout feeling sad but i am sad. Pardon me...

love from
your fren
the nice and
frenly ogre hu
calls himself
rubbish bin
xavier/shavia/tongsanba

haha! yea! woohooo! my second post! okok... need to compose myself (cannot spoil my calm and composed rational image)

anyway.. i feel so dosappointed with myself! i tried to sit down and wrap sweets for my og..(which i like keep PSing all the time coz the programme was too boring and not that they were that lousy...and thus i was labelled MIA all the time!!) i ended up like doing only a few.. so i'll have to give only the girls lor.. sianz... i feel so darn guilty!

anyway.. i feel good! i got my new line! yea! feel free to call me yea? can talk thru the night if u want! yea yea! a bit siao today heehee... anw... i love 3805!!

i love MARIAN, HERRICK, JES, MEL, EWWWWW, DARRR, KENTANG! dun u all love me too? i tink i'm nice... if u tink so... pls tell me okok? somebody help me give me thethings i want... read the top of blog... the labelled stuff

love from
your fren
the big and nice ogre
hu calls himself
rubbish bin
xavier/shavia/tongsanba

wuahahahaha! so the rubbish bin/ogre has decided to learn something and blog too! heehee... dunno anything bout this dumb blog.. got to stick with templates.. sigh.. if only i knew more bout this...

since this is the virgin post... i shall proclaim my love!

to my dearest frens and classmates and dunno hu la... some ah seng, ah beng, fishseller, durian seller...

to my brudders from OG1: Marian and Herrick(who are in the brotherhood) then theres jes(who is so thick in the head that u cant believe it) and mel(the musculine guy with a feminie name!)

to those nexus goers hu sit there and outrightly flaunt the sch rules by playing bridge there and not getting caught! i love this ppl! they lead a life of danger and risks! learn from them and me!

to darr, daph, and ewwww: i love u pple! and we all miss darr... come back soon! hopefully u'll be with me on mon! (ewww and daphj ponning!) then we'll go out together in the afternn! yea!

to shan and van: van for being the shyest and demurest girl i eva know! and shan for being the first guy i know for announcing to the world that u're a (u know what)
and for wanting my body!

to my fellow san bas: i miss u all so much! muz rmb the 5 yr later pact! okok? haha!

love from
the nice and frenly
ogre hu
calls himself rubbish bin
xavier/shavia/tongsanba