so ppl tot i might have been lost along the way.. nah.. it aint it.. im juz lost in my little world that i juz seem to get out.. weird aint it? i was reading some comic and i felt so sad all of a sudden.. not that i was not sad to begin with.. but juz felt worse.. much worse.. so yea.. this old man regretted sth he did in his life and he went to so much trouble juz to try to control time so as to recitify his mistake. As to what trouble.. he willingly sold his soul to the devil and caused much mayhem and chaos.. juz for sth trivial to others.. but impt to him..

if a fiction can do that, why cant i find courage to do sth.. i dunno at all.. well.. u dunno im toking bout u even when i am toking bout u.. u tink im toking bout some1 else.. daphne left.. some1 is heartbroken.. what am i doing with my life.. seriously.. im so screwed up.. im such a loser.. shannon thinks so, xinjie thinks so, cia ai thinks so.. im wimpish and useless.. thats wat xavier.. im unable to say some things.. maybe this is what set the strong and weak apart.. maybe..

how i wish i could control time..
how i wish, how i yearn, how i hope
for ur care, concern and love
but i know it aint friggin possible..
not at all not at all..
cause i fear failure and rejection
if u know im toking bout you
all i ask for is some sign or thing
something to make time go by free..

im a friggin loser.. i bet pple agree.. those who do BREATHE

wat little time i have left to exams.. one and a half month.. pple.. MUG! alright? speaking of mug.. i was frantic 15mins ago.. i thought my mum threw away a mug of mine that a fren gave me.. i felt so helpless thinking it aint coming back.. good thing my sis was juz using it.. good thing.. so pple.. rmb to MUG!

well.. this mug had ta do with u.. do u rmb?

back on demand pple.. daphne.. i BROUGHT ur CD ok.. so u diam diam.. tsk tsk.. and shannon, miss me then say la.. say till i like gone for good lidat.. haha.. so much stuff have been happening recently.. too fast too furious for me.. i tink im like those losers that alice teo talks about.. i cant keep pace with life at all.. its so (shakes wrists)

anw.. the only thing on my mind is 6 august.. much as 3 august and 4 august are the impt dates for SOME pple.. 6 august was significant to me.. it isnt wat pple will tink it is cuz i mentioned the 3 and 4.. its juz that i shed tears for 2 pple.. 4 for someone that doesnt exist and two for someone that meant a lot to me..

pple might think that wats 6 drops of tears? well.. i dun cry at all.. the only last time i bawled and howled and wailed and teared was when it was finale for MC and ms wong was leaving.. other than that.. i havent.. not even when aunt lucy made me not like her PERMANENTLY. 4 drops of tears for someone that u pple will laugh at.. cuz i shouldnt have cried.. the other two was for you..

u aint leaving for good.. but ur departure however temporary.. is saddening for me and others.. much as i hate to say this.. i dun wish u to go.. but the choice was urs.. u chose.. u went.. u left.. what choice do i have to begin with but juz acceptance of whats gonna happen? i cant mope around.. i can only wait in silence.. alone.. till the day u return.. and hope time will not erode this friendship of ours.. i wish u all the best.. see you in at least half a decades time?

just remember the two drops of tears i shed:
for u. for the person hu had changed me to be hu i am from 8 months ago.. to the first person i plucked my courage to say things to .. to the person who is gonna leave me.. to the person that....... i'll miss ya....