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    /Contrite.} HaeMin-Love deviantart : InvisibleSnow
    Monday, April 10, 2006
    mein @ 2:55 PM

    alright.


    the greatest sin ever in my opinion is betrayal on the parents' part. this happens when the parent emotionally abuses the child. it is a gradual yet excruciating experience. it leaves a stigma in the child. for life? maybe.. but it sure hurts. if drops of water can cut through stone, then words can scar a heart.

    i hate u.

    u childed me for leaving a broom in sight and blaming me for some superstitious beliefs of yours. u spoke to her in such a tender tone. u asked me to clear the house when she gets to laze in her room and watch VCDs. u ask her how's her day at work, u ask me when am i gonna drop out. this lil actions mean a lot ma. have u even ever tried to understand?

    i still hate u

    i weep in silence and solitude. behind the electronic barrier, behind the masks that i randomly put on and lastly, in the abyss of my heart. did u know that? u never do. u assume, u presume, u think, u thought. is what revolves round your life. aint it?

    i hate u from the bottom of my heart.

    there are people that i love, u just dont happen to be one of them. DEAL WITH IT.

    all i need is a simple lift

    Sunday, April 02, 2006
    all i ever wanted is.. @ 2:04 PM

    i have only wanted one thing in my life that has been lacking all this while. and it still is.. why cant i have it? am i really like what SL says? i just dun want anything that had already happened to re-occur n re-enact. dun u get it? i just want that one thing, will the rest that i have not laid my eyes on just BUZZ off.


    but maybe amidst my complains, it is but a mere WANT n CRAVING. maybe i dun need all this. maybe Men live their live best in solitude, like a hermit, away from pple, from frens, from relations. with no contact, there will be less friction.

    since friction=problems,
    therefore less friction=less problems.
    which means the world would be a better place.

    justified?

    all i need is a simple lift

    Saturday, April 01, 2006
    ~~..~~..~~ @ 3:26 PM

    FALLING. thats wats happening to me. i dunno wat im getting into. i dun want to spoil things. i achieve good, but i cant help but fall. sometimes as fast as the speed of light, sometimes as slow as a snail's crawl. BUT i am falling, falling falling. into a rut, into a hole,into abyss


    EMOTION. thats wat all humans deal with. i do, and so do you, you and you. but cia ai said i aint human, cuz i aint reacting like a normal one. the truth is, i am cia ai. i am HUMAN. i just grew up to know that emotions are not things to dwell upon. thats wat make me who i am. but amidst all this i know there is an infernal. burning so passionately. burning for greatness to come in turn.


    SICK. i am literally so. so sick of being sick. it makes my nose leak all the time. sick is this world we live in. i know the ways of the world will sicken me, but i still seek and pursue it. i am sick. Yes i am. who else would be so sick in heart and mind to wanna pursue sickness. but then again, isnt it only human to commit follies like this? the pisces and aquarius in me make me sick. cia ai, u're right. im sick, sick, sick and still sick. in heart, in mind, in body, in spirit


    PAIN. it is sth i grew numb too. nothing seems to affect me drastically. hwever, it is creeping towards me, slowly but surely. what measures could be employed to ease this. or maybe numb it? it seems as tho the cause is also the cure. tis too much for me to bear, the sheer pain. are men vassals for negativity? i seem to see more pain than pure divine happiness in any man. God, if there is one, if u're not busy, if u're u, then save us all. spare us the agony. the agony of pain, especially one like mine.

    all i need is a simple lift