ok.. i watched the replay for the Chmaps League Final: Liverpool and Ac Milan.. Well, its very heartbreaking i must say.. firstly, we see Milan up by three goals and then going down to three all and to lose the match on penalties.. This match juz brought back memories that i have kept away for a long time.. It's juz so like my very own experience.. To be leading in the game and then to lose it because of one silly mistake that u commit. That very mistake, causes u to falter in ur cause and goals.. makes u lose all confidence and u juz cant seem to come up and win it.. how sad..

Knowing that u'll regret sth, u tell urself u wun and u strive for the best and not regret it. In the end, u commit the very folly that u set out to not commit.. isnt this ironic? sometimes u wonder if there is a higher power out there that is controlling u in ways that u neva knew.. i guess we'll neva know right? one thing for sure.. i do regret bout my own match.. not many pple would understand wat im saying.. i know yao would, he's been there and done that like i did.... Well, rmb pple.. do not live a life full of regrets.. ok? coz its not worth it.. Not at all..

Next.. i wanna clarify matters with my fellow classmate.. well... firstly, a person is neva under the influence of another.. its a matter of choice and u allowed urself to be under the shadow of another person.. Sexist as ms alice teo is, she is nice at times too.. so stop making it sound as if she is a total wreck.. As for the cloths, shannie did ask whether they needed help and they say its ok.. if u want help, THEN BLOODY SAY IT. dun give stupid answers that arent here nor there.. We make announcements sitting down? Well, the only time when shannie was sitting down was on tues class civics. He was discussing issues.. which u pple dint actively take part in either.. well.. im sorry if u find me egoistical.. coz its juz me.. and i dun tink im ego as in really ego? u made it seem as if u knew me really well to spot my flaws juz like that.. Wat makes u tink wat u see on a few occasions is what the person is like? There is always a reason behind every action of any rational human being.. U wanna know y im so "attention seeking"? so crazy? making so much noise? TRYing to seem HAPPY? well.. its coz im not happy, and STAGE is only thing that drives me forward? Y am i making noise and being crazy? coz thats the only way to let me not dwell on stuff that haunt me every night while i am at home.. so i am WRONG in trying to appear in ur photos.. so i shant.. i admit that is WRONG on my part if u are really offended by it.. as for gossips... i dunno wat u're referrin to.. if u're toking bout jun kai's.. every1 knows even b4 we say.. as for whether is it the one concerning u.. EXCUSE ME! i tink u oughtta make things clear.. who is it exactly doing it.. im sorry to inform u.. i'll only REFLECT on stuff that i think i am wrong in.. like for example, spoiling the photos by appearing in it? i dun exactly care if im likable or not with u or the class (coz majority of the class is girls) but sadly, i live for myself.. when im standing upright, my shadow will neva be crooked.. y should i stay outta urs? like i said.. i dun live for u? u should stay away from me if u dun like me..

and if u WANNA vote us out as class leaders.. go ahead.. i dun care.. i find it a chore.. but i've got no choice.. i was voted in by ppl.. i dint nominate myself.. i cant be bothered to.. the class did.. u think its fun? when we dun have cooperation from u pple? when we have discussions.. what the hell are u pple doing? looking dead.. staying here and there.. toking amongst urselves.. the only pple who are really contributing r juz that same few pple.. not U included.. y bother smiling at ppl when u dun mean that smile.. u tink u're the only one that have problmes? well u're wrong! u only have a problem with me and shan.. thats all.. i've got a home that is on the rocks.. i am so damn stressed.. by wat my LIFE! i rather end it then to continue with it la.. the only reason i wun kill myself is becoz of the minority of ppl in my life that i find it wotrthwhile to live for.. i wouldnt call u a bitch.. coz i will not put myself in the wrong by callling u names. what i have written my defence to ur accusations.. if u arent happy with me.. we'll sit down and thrash it out.. dun leave it behind ur blog.. im sorry if im causing u any misery or have caused u any in the past term.. but i think u've gotta change ur attitude and look at things in a more open perspective.. :)