STAND BY ME!

what a phrase.. short sweet simple but yet it encompasses the entirety of so many things.. at least to me it does.. i want the world to stand by me.. not the world as in THE world but the pple ard my.. pple in MY world.. howeveer.. this aint what im gettin.. pple arent doing that.. not even that lil' bit.. they cant even fulfill sth that they promised.. omg.. they PROMISED! "so what?" is what they're gonna say.. they can shrug it off just like that.. without giving a second though.. to think you're suppose to be the fairer sex.. the one that is tactful and caring and thoughtful.. at this rate i DARE SAY IM BETTER IN ANY OF THE ASPECTS I MENTIONED.. RAHHH!!!! so i gathered u wun stand by me.. andso why should i stand by YOU? when i have done so and not get any resounding reassurances that i'm doing it right?

anw.. its FINAL.. after the common tests.. i will go up to MR Cheng and ask him for permission to step down as a Class LEader.. i think i am incompetant and i am unable to fill this post.. i will give him a list of pple whom i think will be able to do better than me.. hopefully.. things will change for the better.. at the very most.. i will hang on till after Service Learning Project.. which is highly impossible.. Cuz i dun have the heart to go on.. my HEart is dead.. besides.. even if i have the Will.. i dun have the POWER to do it.. cuz u've not given me the chance to do so.. i suppose this IS for the better.. aint it?

common tests coming.. im mugging like siao.. but it seems to be not registering.. im so mugging again tonight.. and hopefully i wun fall sick again.. i juz recovered la. pls pls pls.. no more illness.. that headache was terrible enuff alr.. i dun want it ever again.. I PRAY HARD!!!!!!!