the horrigible feeling is creepin upon me again.. the one feeling that drains me of everything.. i feel lifeless and listless.. as if life was suddenly stripped of its meaning.. wat if something was within reach and then it was taken away from u all of a sudden.. coz somebody aint feeling happy.. and decided that u cant have it so it was removed.. even tho u were given it alr.. its like so (Xavier shakes his wrist) sometimes i wish i wasnt born.. but then again.. i wouldnt have met wonderful pple like u all out there.. i guess this aint such a huge issue aferall.. RIGHT? its not like i'll be missed.. im like so insignificant.. God has given me HER as my life-long test an hence.. its gonna take my life-time to pass this test.. do i have wat it takes to? i dunno.. im so DUMB! its so damn (Xavier shakes his wrist)

im so sorry pple.. i tried my best to.. God aint on my side.. i ought to help myself tho.. GRRRR.. I HATE YOU!!! this is so coming from the bottom of my heart.. i swear it.. i HATE YOU!!!!