hahas. this is the first time i'm exploiting my power/right as a guest blogger on xavie's blog. cos he's not updating!! that eedeeiort!!! update! =P

i've finally figured how to upload photos onmy blog.. haha.. no one shall mock me.. thats my sis.. i tink i lok like an idiot.. however.. i refuseto admit it.. and i hope to receive only nice comments form u pple.. ahahaha! anw.. promos creep near.. gotta start work man.. really.. u pple too.. go and study ok? dun guai lan guai lan then end up screwing ur exams.. all muz pass! UNDERSTAND?? ok..

witnessing a convocation ceremony is truly amazing... have any of u seen it? i suppose so.. i mean.. the thoughts and emotions rushing into ur head at the moment u see ur own sister up on the stage is remarkable.. u'll wish u're the one up there.. u wish u are the one graduating.. not only do u feel proud.. u make a promise tourself that u'll be the next one there.. not only to do justice to urself.. it is to ur parents that paid for ur education and love u.. (not that my mum loves me.. she doesnt..)

for me.. being there to witness it made me have a clearer picture as to what i want to do in life.. wat goals i want to meet and such.. i love stAJe works, the theatre and everything that comes along with it.. even tho i might have fallen before.. wish me luck pple.. in my pursuit of my dreams..

"i promise to stand and fight again.. to prove my my worth to those hu thought i was unworthy.. to soar and fly and lead pple to greater heights that u aint capable of reaching.. one need not be credited at all times for the work u've done.. sometimes pple juz dun see.. the most impt thing is that u have put in ur best and u're doing it outta passion.. lastly, i believe that benevalent leadership is the most effective one.. pushin pple ard and being bossy will get u nowhereand the people will not be happy.. u and i may not see eye to eye.. but i'll prove to you that im more capable than u tink i am.. i alone have initiated sth that will benefit more than u tink it will.. as a leader u have failed to see what is correct.. instead u've been muddle-headed and saw what was apparant and obvious but not the underlying intentions.. for this.. u failed.. juz make sure u dun walk up to the wrong person to say, good job.. u'll make a laughing stock of urself.."

from ur fren
the big and
nice ogre hu
calls himself
rubbish bin

xavier/shavia/tongsanba

this is so weird.. i read so much marlowe that im blurified.. GRRRRR.. irritating.. nvm.. me sis off to CHINA to present her thesis paper on GAYS! cool rite? shannon muz be on the edge of his seat now.. haha.. anw.. i had a great day.. i strongly recommend prata at the coffee shop opposite centre for fathering! heehee.. i dunno the address.. but i can send u there if u want.. haha..

i juz love pple in stage.. most of them.. and i muz say.. chinfat made my day today.. and i dunno why.. hmm.. maybe its cuz of her dumbness.. and that she's juz so noisy.. i dun even rmbing wat nice thins shedid.. i doubt shehas done any but then.. she juz has the energy in her to make pple feel good... as for fish.. she's ebtertainment.. wuahahaha.. the reasons why i say so? ask her.. and kai.. cant spell for nuts.. no wonder he screwed his GP essay.. WUAHAHAHAHAHA!

im gonna send my sis off.. hope she's gonna be and stay well.. i love her! haha.. she's the one person that im able to bare my heart outto.. she is the only one that seem to offer solutions and comfort to me when im most troubled and pissed.. she has gone thru wat i have and i respect her for that.. she holds the knowledge that i want to have.. God bless her..

********** i screwed my chinese oral! damn! i've gotta re-take it man.. i'll like so fail CLAO and then everyone will laugh at me again for having lousy chinese.. im so lousy.. cant even do CLAO properly.. nvm.. mug harder for the written papers then.. thats the only thing i can do to remedy the situation im in.. SIGH!

anw.. from wati've read from zhen yin's blog, i've been convinced by her that she aint caring for no one.. from her attitude.. i doubt she'll be the one of those pple hu'll sacrifice themselves for the greater good.. anw, according to her.. my blog is dead friggin boring.. apparatnly i've said things bout how depressed i am..(loads of times) and narrating my life.. hmmm.. well.. one thing that im happy bout is that i dun rave bout how hot some girls or women are.. how i wish to get a ang moh woman or sth.. thats so superficial.. so sarong party-ish la.. only want to marry a ang moh.. tsk tsk.. anw.. pple.. if u tink im dead boring, pls tell me.. haha.. cuz im taking this like a diary.. tho i noe pple reads.. NOTICE: a blog can be a form offrustration ground for pple.. and by narratingevents.. pple can relive memories that they juz had and feel good.. do u think its boring.. sowat if it is for the reader? the blog isnot here for pple to read.. but for u to write and post.. and when pple post sth bout u on the blog.. they're not toking behind ur back.. obviously they WANT u to read it.. so u'll be pissed or sad or wateva.. haha.. (indian accent) USE UR BRAIN!

and we should all go learn some form of martial arts.. its good for u! mr guru said i should go for boxing.. can u imagine me boxing? i'll seriously turn into a GIANT literally.. im like so HUGE alr.. not that i dun like my build now.. has more advantages than disadvantages..but its juz that i shouldnt get any bigger.. icant seem to find t-shirts that are comfortable now.. my shoulders are always so tight! imagine my upper torso gettin bigger! AHHHHH! nooo.. maybe i'll juz hmmm.. nvm.. i shall work hard on my current art.. WUAHAHAHAHAH!

mar! im so sorry.. i shall give u more attention.. so that u wun tink i vanished from the surface of the earth ya? anw.. i WANT to join bridge club.. MAKE ME A HONOURARY MEMBER! haha!

ok.. i juz realised after 17 and half years of life that schooling and education is juz like battle royale.. u gotta fight for everything.. damn... its so like an uphill task.. GRRRR! so pple.. to spur ur good frens on to work.. when u see them in school, give'em a pat on the back(not smack), a bear hug or a warm handshake to let thenm feel loved and warm and comforted.. trust me.. this will work..

anw.. i've gotta be mugger alr.. must not get retained.. muz get my targetted grades! AHHHH! PPLE! SPUR ME ON! give me tuition...

YAY! tmr is the official start of a new term! oooosh! i sense mew life and resolve in me.. but i gotta compensate some old stuff i owe first.. juz the rest of you hu owe hw.. RMB to complete and submit! okok? WUAHAHAHAAH! GO GO GO!

had a great break over the weekend.. had so much nice stuff happening to me! had so much fun too! 3805 outing, rotting at hm, then sunday went out with my ex-schmate/neighbour/snr/buddy/etc.. as for today! met my GANG(be afraid, be VERY afraid) from TCHS (NOTICE the additional T) ended up going to won to eat kimchi noodles.. only to return to my area to play pool.. omg.. nonetheless.. LU! thx for the toy car!

then went kaiii's hse for mahjong.. i got owned by kaiii and fish la.. hmm (wonder y? lalalala..) seriously, only pple with scandals win in kaiii's hse la.. so irritating.. the scandaless are the ones that lose.. TIAN LI HE ZAI! grrrr... tmr is a sch day! CHEONG!!! muz be a model student.. no more lazing ard like in term two! and STAGE is defrosted! to work to work! i need a deadline as to when the script is DONE! omg! EXCO! u HEAR THIS???

last but not least, i love everyone!
to 3805: for being the bestest class i ever had!
to herr and marr: for being my besties!
to stAJe works: for being a cca as good as softball
to my 3905: for being unique and moulding me to be a better person by placing me in the face of adversities
to my frens: i love you and miss you all!

looking back we see
a moment ago we've met
and now we say goodbye my fren
you'll always be there in my heart

sing me a song that would bring me back
all the memories we've had
the times we had together
how i wish they could last
its so hard to let go
but still we've gotta do so
i'll miss everyone of you

looking back we see (how time flies)
a moment ago we've met
and now we say goodbye my fren
you'll always be there in my heart

thats a song by kaiii.. ask him to sing if u have a chance! :P

"im waiting.. waiting for the day when you'll appear beside me and tread the path i tread.. breathe the air i breathe.. bring me out of the desolation i am in.. im so screwed up.. my life.. and myself as an entity.. why am i questioning so much? why cant i juz live my life like any other and not give a damn bout anything else.. Juz live it till im old and dead.. and i move on...

however.. im still awaiting your arrival.. when will you do.. do you even know if i am? i dun even know ur face.. but i do know you are out there.. somewhere.. my other half.. but are u able to find your way to me? i doubt it.. or i would have had your love for me.. when will i have it? where will i have it? how will i have it?

i am so not loved.. i am deprived for your love.. the hunger and thirst that bounds me.. i yearn for it.. it seems as though im shackled to the dungeons.. neva to catch a glimpse of you... why.. why...."

today was simply.. i dunno.. i dint like today even tho im suppose to be happy.. i seem to have lost my sense of individuality and im acting so much like a jerk and bastard.. sorry waii!

that sounded like a depressing title.. on the contrary.. im really delighted! the reason for my elation today is cuz i think i did fairly for my CLAO paper.. tho i dint touch a single bit of it at all! wuahahahah! i managed a three and three quarter page compo and finished my paper 2 with 15mins to spare... considering i thought before i ansed the questions.. its quite a feat by my standrads! haha! anw.. its like..

after ther paper.. we had so much FUN! played so much pool and i toked so much shit that i wanna puke and die.. haha! tho i sucked big time today.. sigh.. KAI muz be relishing the fact that he is good.. and chinfat muz be thinking she's damn good.. cuz she won three straight sets becuz of me scoring the black ball in the wrong hole by accident! ARGH! nvm.. then waii was so bitchy! haha! i've decided to call her the bitchy bDD! heehee.. suits her tothe core.. haha!

tmr going to play squash with darr and harry! haha! im so gonna win harry and get owned by darr! HAHA! yea.. then mahjonging at KAI's hse.. then meeting the 38ters.. LOVE YA ALL! MISS YA ALL TOO! THINK OF ME THINK OF ME FONDLY! oh.. i hate waii!