im too chilled.. to say anything.. wats wrong with me.. i dont know.. what do i want.. i cant tell.. i only know i have ta pull thru the promos and then pull thru my A's then NS then what?

i want to do so many things but i realise that im stopping myself too.. painful? no.. juz plain irritating.. junkai mentioned on his blog twice.. Love and be Silent.. well.. is that wat he is doing? im sorry dude.. but u aint knowing what that is.. neither do i.. but i think i know its meaning better than u do.. its draining alright.. makes u seem as if u're swimming in clay, running with a parachute, breathing with a plastic bag tied around ur neck..

Y do people have issues against others? why are pple picked on all the time?

when i do work.. pple pick on sth else to say. When i dun, of course they complain. sometimes a juvenile thing can seem so big when its not exactly ur fault to begin with.. it aint my responsibility to send the report.. thats y i dun see the big hoo-ha over my claim that i dint receive it.. yes its dumb that i dint check the junkmail for the e-mail.. but hey.. looking at wat stuff goes into the junkmail and that other stuff u have sent goes to my inbox.. i dont see how i am totally at fault here.. u asked me not to give u shit anymore.. so can i ask what kinda shit have i exactly given all the time? u'll mention the interviews, and what else? havent i done sth else? u screwed up stuff too.. bigger than i have.. so i hope u wun juz pick n me.. do u seriously have sth against me? if u do could upls be more mature and speak it out? and not just harbour on it and make my life miserable.. GROW UP

im gonna start working my ass off... soon.. real soon.. i promise.. like i have to you, you and you..


going, going, going, going, going, going, going, going..... GONE!