okie!

9days... not too long.. not too short.. Focus, Energy, Drive, Determination. Juz for nine days i need it.. to study and get smart and pass promos with not too bad results. hee.. than wats nxt? so much stuff to do.. SL, CLAO, IHD, PW. tok bout packed man.. DJ too.. GOSHOMANIAKA! i need a break.. which is why im wastingtoday away.. i clocked 15hrs of slp alr.. hows that.. i tink im tired..

sth else's bugging me too.. pple r drifing away.. thats wat i see.. even the closest ones are leaving me.. they seem to have lost the vigour and positive light they had ard them.. others juz moved on.. they dun even reply to calls or msgs.. weird.. juz cuz u've gone on to some other place.. this happened.. pple say things are no longer the same and they feel sad bout it.. bout have u in the first place do sth to make others feel the same? u can only see the faults in others but not ur own. juz likehow u can only see other pple's eyebrows but not ur own...

im keeping an open mind for my life.. thats how good things start.. neva dwell in the past... nor sink in sadness.. or so i've learnt from pple ard me.. some things are painful.. but there are good things too.. satisfaction can be derived.. so can happiness.. as for sadness.. it can be self-induced.. many would agree.. so some would same its juz cuz u study the arts.. thats y.. its not.. its juz that we are more feeling and more human compared to you.. thats all, period..

pain. can be emotional or physical. cause? incidents that occured or due to physical contact. inother cases, phycologically induced. happiness? unknown feeling induced by things or incidents around us that please us. haha.. its high time i feel confidantbout myself.. to face this world as who i am.. no longer hiding my feelings.. i've donethat for too many years alr.. i've gotta face my true self and embrace my life and grasp it in myhand.. thats all.. the rest of the pieces will fall in place on its own..

im no onger waiting for you but looking at life in a new light and waiting for a new person who i dun even noe exists.. i hope that person shows herself to me soon so my wait will finally come to an end.. i am waiting for the one in a million in a lifetime.. waiting... waiting...