im in such a bad mood... SCREW THIS FRIGGIN WORLD!

-growls-

i hate pple like YOU! y muz YOU do all the stuff YOU did to HIM? if u had never done wat YOU did, HE would never do what HE juz did.. at the end of it all, YOU are the sinner. YOU caused this tragedy to appear.. damn YOU. this is not all YOU did.. YOU messed upp MY life.. YOU shaped me to become what I am.. the useless, wimpish, gay prick.. everything thats wrong with MY life has got to do with YOU.

i HATE you.
even tho i thank YOU for some things that YOU've done.


well.. shannon... thanks for the post.. i was thinking u're gonna do sth dumb like that soon.. but that was helpful.. i read it when i was in a horrid mood.. and IM STRAIGHT.. and shannon.. YOU know it.. so stop telling pple im gay.. -growls-



hot and cold.. thats what im getting.. is this headed where i tink it is?
this question pops into my head repeatedly..
what exactly are you thinking?
God oh God.. help me.. but then again.. is there God?
im confused and i feel helpless..
should i stand up and take the first step..
but sth pricks at my mind..
will u retreat when i advance..
if i take a step forward..
how many steps would you take backward?
i juz hope and cling on to my faith,
this would in all be a happy ending :)

i smile myself to sleep every night because i promised myself i would never enter my dreams a crying person, sad and dejected.