well well well.. its been a long long long long long long time since i blogged.. haha.. but yea.. im back here again.. hmmmm

wells, i've been really busy.. and then im only going to get busier cuz of the workload.. and all the shit that im receiving.. however, amidst all this shit, there is sth that makes all these worthwhile.. the presence of wonderful ppl ard me.. i hope it stays this way. and of course my guiding light.. =)

i decided to cut my hair just after one mth cuz i needed to clear my head of all those thoughts i had. those unhappy, vengeful, horrible ones that simply drive u mad and at the same time literally revives the carnal instincts to want to kill. tho i tink this time round the hair is quite nice.. haha..

february is a horrible month.. especially week7 of this term.. i swear its horrible.. i cant go out at all.. to think everyone's having fun while i am slogging for bloody staje w/o any appreciation or lest prompt cooperation. why should i even bother to put in effort for sth that isnt recipcrating? its simply like torturing myself and banging my head against the wall.. screw it all..

y bother fucking myself over this kinda stuff.. its so pissifying.. i hate it.. but well, i chosethis path.. the number of ifs in my head.. if if if if if if if if if .. fucking if.. maybe i should just quit.. not like any1 reads a dead blog.. so yea..


anyway.. february is an important month but i cant do anthing on the important days.. i hate this.. i bet no one knows wat im talking about.. im like some loner in this world that noone gives a shit bout..

hahas. i know you miss me.
i know you are sleepy and want me with you (awwww....)
but it's okay. monday and we are back to routine life.
not that i want it but you can see me more often aye. (:


hahahahhahahas.
if any J1s from xavier's OG read his blog.
please know that he goes for GUYS only :D

its just all smiles for me.

i'm putting the past behind me.

i'm ignoring pple who'll spoil my life.

i'm cherishing the moments i have with the ppl that matter. YES u, u, u, u, u, and u. (meaning those who care enough to be bothered to read my blog.)

i miss the Brotherhood. Herrick do sth pls (should uhappen to read this)

i miss playing bridge. Can some1 pls play with me?

sigh..

i dont want anymore empty promises.. NEVER EVER AGAIN