so here i am again..


to my beloved juniors who're reading my blog. its a disclaimer to tell ya that my blog is my posting ground of angr/screwed up/dumb/ ****-ed up stuff. so well, bear with the depressing content.


thank you stajeworks but completing IHDC even though it sucked. i swear it sucked. i bet ms wong must be thinking its a flop. but yea


my parents are screwed up. u all should know wat i mean. except this time it seems for real that they wanna get outta each other's lives. ohwells, screw it all.. i seem strangely normal bout it.. i have a heart of cold man..


sth that mark mentioned on xiang's blog. shit.. i seem to fit in there tho.. i just did one.. damn.. where did my morals go? crap..


so much work
so little time
so confused
so longing

for grades
for sleep
for sanity
for some1

i slog
i plan
i rationalize
i act


ohwells.. just for pple that matter to me..

ITS GONNA BE ME!

let me see.. im officially 18 and i feelthe same.. but nah.. yesterday sucked big time..

i waited like some idiot for some stupid thing that never came.. sorry dude, u're the one missing out.. not me.. i gave u the ball, and it stayed there.. too bad.. i'll just see wat happens and get on with my life..

i thought my mum was nice when she gave me a present on tues. she said "its for ur birthday"
and u know wat? i found out that the "present" was a FUCKING free gift that she got when she bought my sis's bday present (which cost close to a thousand dollars) talk about inequality and love. she dint say happy birthday to me at all man.. NEVER at all.. to think i actually thought she's nice.. this is all so FUCKed up..

sometime its extremely ironic how man always chose to do things the hard way. the easier road was so much better.. but i refuse and took a harder path.. nw? im regretting it.. y dint i just take the easier path man.. it would have been better.. but hell.. nw i've gotta sort so many things out.. talk bout irony when i want to live a life w/o regrets.. haha.. friggin dumb..

im just gonna be myself and be insensitive man.. i shant give a damn bout certain stuff alr.. wonder wats my whole new outlook gonna be like.. ahahha..