havent really slept for two whole days alr.. going on to three. n its common test week. wats wrong with me? i really dont.. may be it was that blow u dropped me, i dont know.. im just so empty.. i really just dont know...

im kinda rotting my life away by actually studying.. whats wrong with me? maybe im just n0t smart enough. maybe im just not who i really made myself out to be. maybe the hollw in me is finally causing lines of weakness to appear. maybe im crumbling away because i got a suck punch. because i am hollow, n because i let down my defenses.

maybe its time i stop drawing strength from within, because i am hollow. i dont believe in God n there wont be a chance i He can be my pillar of support. im just a weakling. i should just stop and sink. maybe i'll hit the bottom with a "clink" like deathstrike did.


Good night, good morning.. today's ticking..

**the infant stood at the door, using the wall as a support. it eyed the back of the woman, whom it thought would be its mum, getting smaller and smaller till it disappeared over the horizon of the setting sun.


it wanted to let her know its feelings and thoughts. but it couldnt speak because no one taught it to. it was helpless.


all it could do was to wave with its free hand.


in a last ditch effort to make the woman turn back, it jumped and waved with two arms.


it lost its balance and fell.


there was no one to help it up,
no one to carry n console it, no one to cuddle and love it,
no one to teach it to love.


it just sat there,



tear drop after tear drop roll down its cheeks.





unable to get up,








tear drop after tear drop roll down its cheeks.











unable to get help,













tear drop after tear drop roll down its cheeks.


-shavia