thats my state of mind.

i rejected what u offered. but im indulging in it these few days. why? to douse and to lift myself? what're u thinking? i am clueless. i dont want to play this game. i simply want to have things laid and smack.

-words made my day but actions broke me

seriously. just enlighten me. i need to know. im being driven to a corner by so many things. the promise of deliverance could very well also be a gift of malovalence. didnt u know that? there are so many things in life that u dont know. i am more than willing to help and allow u to see them through my eyes and learn under my mentorship. but really, is it all a show? is it all a midsummer night's dream? cuz i am willing to do what i havent done in my life, to grant permission. stop toying me, im breaking.

-slowly but surely, ebbing