i swear sth is wrong


i spilled when i read pt of origin.
i fucking spilled.

not once not twice. but numerous times.
fuck.


wats wrong with me? would u tell me?
cuz you have the answers, like i have for u.


*when everything He ever made met, they all stared in disbelief.
All were so different in form. Yet all were so similar.
He had created them in a certain mould. they shared His pain and turned to Him.
they want to help Him. but can mere products ever heal Him?
He is afterall the lord of His creation.

i found

i saw

i know.


thats wat life is all about. to find, to see, and then to know. life is a constant journey to learn bout itself. fallacy? perhaps.

when would u u want to enter my life? wheb would u gladly accept it? when is all i ask. because quantifyers allow man to have a clear target. when.

simplifying matters is a defense mechanism, at least it is to me. u'll grow tired of trying to fix things from the middle ground. i swear. i hope u do understand. but yea, i'll try once more to do as u suggest.

as for the other, it'll be a secret that u'll carry to your grave. i dictate that. because it is sensitive. and i view that as a weakness of mine. yes it might be very hilarious, but well, it has a certain fatalistic dualism about it eh?

anyway, ilove you. and im thankful for your presence. u really saved my day. rargh.

*a child, thats wat it is. a child. its nothing more than that.dont let its facade fool you. it is but a child. a scarred one. a self reflexive one. it is a child. merely stitched together with bits n pieces. a kitch, a rojak, a mishmash. who then would like to own it?

even death can't do us part.
hahas.
you should know that. even in hell,
i will still bound you to me. -wide grinz-


and wheee is spelt wheee.
hahas.


smile always!
-psst-
认一时，风平浪静。
退一步，海阔天空。


总有美丽的夜晚来临的，
直到那时候，我会与你走下去。 (:

-the seeds


the fruit of evolution
the epitome of survival
the key to continuity
the symbol of life

though it is great
it is locked
contained within
its physical shell

it is in need for
sun, water and space
externalities
to be what it is

with everything set in gears it shall
with a bang explode, displaying its true
powers for all the world to bear witness
it will be a living miracle that none ever knew.

but this aint possoble
unless it is satisfied
by the very thing it
needs and crave


*i dunno wat to say to u guys. i just know i left behind one of the greatest moments of my life. but i also know that we wont disperse like i fear. cuz ultimately,we all reside in each others heart. my dream now is to start with a bang. in studies, in my passions and in other things. a bang. thats all it takes to kick start life. a bang. thats all it takes for me to enter the real world. a bang.