Someone mentioned today that i dun exactly emote a lot.
Someone from a while back told me im like an enigma that is hard to figure.
Someone asked me last night is it really that hard to tell someone you've got feelings for her.

i told them all the same thing.

I have emotions like any other. It's just that when some part of you dies, emotions becomes a choice. When the situation arises, you actually choose what you want to be. Especially so for anger and sadness. And when you become a person like this, i think it is a tragedy. It would be so much easier to leave things at face value but hell no. It doesn't happen that way. Thats a price you pay when u're given a gift.

It's funny why that girl asked me something like that. It really is. I was contemplating certain things and she ask me such a jarring question. It really puts me in a spot you dweeb. So i told her that it is a tough thing to do cuz a man has to shed all his ego and humble himself in order to tell the girl how he feels. Moreover, if you're put in this dilema while you're still a kid, all the more it is gonna be hard. Dun blame him, it's just how guys are wired. Really.

After having said all that. Now im put in a spot because im forced to face everything. The ball is in my court. Maybe it was done unknowingly but nevertheless. Painful i tell you. And now i go wonder, on living by my principles or trying to be a SNAG

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