Amidst the pondering, some truths might be uncovered. And thus i lay myself in this pool of calamity and welcome the chaos to invade me. Hopefully, i will stand unwavered and untainted. Then with a cleansed soul and vessel, invigorated with blessings from the gods, i will arise once more.

Would you welcome me with open arms?
Would you take me there to the place I've never been before?

Would you, would you?

Labels: Stra Pmac

Kukup is a lifestyle. It soothes not your body but your soul. The saline smell, the cool breeze and the blazing sun. The cool coconut pudding as and when you want it. The durians that were in season. The seafood that came fresh from the seas. The senseless fun in the room laid with mattresses. The wrestling matches between two people. The sarcastic comments thrown at one another. It was a good three days. I feel better already, thank you. This is a toast to the friendships and passions that we hold. "To another 5 years"

On another note, it's been a while hasn't it. And you're still afraid. I am appalled. By your action and by your thoughts. Maybe i've been so wrong. And I am thankful, i can finally move on. It's been a painful 2 half years, living with the memories. I am over. Thats that.

Well, I have been thinking about the matter and about you. I think i might just be serious this time. I am willing to let go and try. I am not gonna hold back just because you might not be here come end of the year. Keeping faith and taking steps. It's time i walked the talk.

Labels: on the mermaid

I feel like i am the oppressed. I feel like i am the anomaly in this equation. I feel that i am unwanted in the face of you. Why must it be so? We are all of the same roots. Stop making me feel like i am being taken for a ride. Stop treating me like a whore. Don't abuse the love i hold for us all. Don't pretend that we're not in this together. Don't disregard the shared memories. I am here, i am real. Treat me with decency, like a human, like a person. I ask this not as an enemy, not as a foe. But as a friend and a comrade in arms. I come in peace.

And so you asked me for what purpose we existed for. You questioned the fundemental beliefs we held for an ideal state. You lost faith. I tried to tell you what i could tell you. I told you to have faith. We have to be the change we want the world to be. You paused, you thought, you swallowed. Then came six days later, you questioned your values and your worth to the organisation. I answered again. You know the answer. I tried to tell you once again as best i could again. You paused, you thought. You seeked higher powers. You swallowed. Don't lose your way, you have what it takes. Take heart, take heart.

Tis not my battle
Tis not my war
It's for you to strive
Not for me to fight

I must admit I am pleasantly surprised. Just when that bar flickered. It was an anticipation that even i was unconscious abouot. That i was unwilling to admit. It is after all a matter of pride.

Labels: -a surprising week with strokes of brilliances